I've been online for what seems like a very long time, and back in the day, I would chat with everyone. It didn't matter who they were or what they looked like. I could spend hours in a chatroom and often I did. On some occasions I even indulged in some rather X-rated chats too. For some reason those days are long gone and I am not sure why, perhaps I spent so much time chatting that now I can't stand to do it. Maybe, the wind has been knocked out of my sail, and I have just lost the energy that I use to have. The excitement of meeting someone is gone. Now that I want to find someone, I am finding that my normal introverted self is even shy online any more. Do not get me wrong, I love meeting new people. I love having a chance to get to know someone, but there are topics that I hate bringing up and it might surprise you what topics I do not want to talk about. If I can avoid a new person, finding out about my pets all the better, because then it will not scare them off. At same time, I do not want to invest my time with someone only to find out that they are afraid of spiders. I also do not want to mention that I can't drive. When I am on a dating site, I find myself holding back from contacting guys because in my head I tell myself that they wouldn't want me without even giving them a chance to get to know me. I really don't know what is different. It is clear that somewhere in mind there is a wall forming, and I'm not sure why those bricks are being laid down but they are and I need to break it down.