Shadow Void

Hiding The Truth

In my daily life I am constantly hiding the truth from people. I'm always keeping it just below the surface. My sexuality is just that my sexuality. No one else has to know. Nobody needs to know who I am unless they need to know. Is it evil of me? Am I treating the gay community wrong? I hide the fact that on occasion I like to look at shirtless hunks and other hunks. Why shouldn't I? There is nothing wrong in getting a glance or two. I know why I hide myself.

I hide myself for myself. It lets me continue the path that I'm currently on right now. It's hiding for a purpose; hiding to stay alive. Hiding does come with some struggles. Still, it would be nice to wake up and be out. It would be nice not to have a family that shunned their gay loved ones but I can't change that so I don't. At work, they don't need to see me. It would only get in the way to be honest. You should see how fast the rumor mill works at work so yeah, I don't need my life used as fodder for gossip. Excuse me for that one!

I can only be blunt about it this, it's my life not yours.

The Gay Survey

The Gay Survey
1. How Old Were You When You Knew You Were Gay?

13

2. Have You Ever Had Sex With The Opposite Sex?

Nope

3. Who Is The First Person You Came Out To?

My brother and sister in law

4. Are You Out To Your Parents?

No

5. Do You Want Children?

Someday

6. Do You Have More Gay Friends or Straight Friends?

Straight Friends

7. Were You Out in School?

No.

8. Is Your Best Friend The Same Sex As You?

No

9. If Your Best Friend Is The Same Sex, have you ever kissed them?

See above answer

10. Have you ever done crystal meth?

No

11. Have You Ever Been In A Sling

No

12. Have You Ever Done A 3-way??

No

13. Have You Ever Dressed In Drag?

No

13a. Would you date a Drag queen?

No

14. Are You A Top/Bottom or truly Versatile?

Don't know

15. Have You Seen An Uncircumsized thingy?

Only in pictures and videos

16. Have You Had Sex With Someone of A Different Race?

Not yet

17. Have You Ever Barebacked?

No, don't plan on it either.

18. How Many Cher CDs do you own?

None

19. Name Of Your First True Love?

No real first loves, but a lot of crushes

20. Do You Still Talk To them?

No

21. Does size matter..?

I like to look at larger endowments, but not sure they are worth it.

22. Biggest Turn On?

The entire package

23. Biggest Turn Off?

Guys who are mean, liars

24. Ever Been Harrassed Because You Are Gay?

Not yet

25. Worst Gay Stereotype That Applies To You?

I don't really know. Being thin maybe

26. Ever Been To A Pride Rally?

Been to the parade is that the rally

27. Would You Marry If You Could?

Maybe If I found the right guy

28. Would you rather be rich and smart or young and beautiful?

Rich and Smart

29. Do You Sculpt Your Eyebrows?

No

30. Do You Trim Your Body?

Only done it once

31. Ever had sex with more than one person in a day?

Nope

32. Ever been to an orgy?

Nope

33. Have you dated your best friends ex?

Nope

34. Would you vote for Hilary Clinton if she ran for president?

I might depending on if I didn't like the other candidate

35. Do you want monogamy in your relationships?

Yes

36. Do you believe in true love?

Yes

37. Do you have any tattoos?

No and don't want one

38. Do you have any piercings?

No and don't want any

39. Would you date a smoker?

Wouldn't' want too

41. Do you know anyone who has died from H.I.V.?

Yes, a cousin who I never met

42. Do you know what Stonewall was?

vaguely

43. Wonder Woman, Xena or The Halliwell Sisters

Wonder Woman

44. Strangest place you have had sex?

Have not had sex

45. Strangest place you've woken up?

Nowhere Strange yet

46. Are your best years behind or in front of you?

In Front of me

47. Favorite porn movie?

Hmmmmmm

48. Are you in love now?

Nope

49. Ever been in love with a straight guy/girl?

Sadly, yes

50. Did you ever have sex with them?

Nope

51. Have you ever been to a nude beach?

Nope

52. Have you ever been to a bath house?

Nope

53. Ever had sex in public?

No