Shadow Void

Gay Stuff that made me think

I saw this on a video on youtube, and I hope the guy in it was not serious, but it certainly gave me something to write about.  One of the things that caught my ears was the part where he said that gays don’t believe in foreplay.  I think the whole foreplay thing is pretty cool. Why would you want to not have foreplay.  Second thing that caught my ears is that gays don’t date.  He even said  that we don’t meet up if a guy won’t put out on the first date.  If you do have a date and they won’t put out, you won’t meet up with them again, and you certainly wouldn’t marry them. Do we really that way in the community?  I hope not.

Hunks of 2017

Here is my list of hot hunks for 2017.  My rules for this list are that the guy can't be on any other of my lists.  Links lead to pictures of the guy.

 

10.Derek Theler - ( Baby Daddy )

http://fanboyism.info/2014/04/20/derek-theler-as-danny-wheeler-shirtless-in-baby-daddy-3x11-the-wingmom/

 

9.Spencer (Anthem Lights - Youtuber )

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/207517495310123739/

 

8.Guys from Stepsof2Foreigners

http://deskgram.org/p/1659829587155481498_180399817

These guys are hot no doubt about it, but they are a sweet couple.  I love watching their youtube videos because it gives they give me hope.

 

7.Uriel Ramirez ( Andrew Christian Model )

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/358951032783096717/

 

6.Igor Stepanov ( Male Model )

https://www.thefashionisto.com/igor-stepanov-is-confident-in-nude-toh-shoot/#jp-carousel-393293

 

5.Diego Barros ( Instagram guy )

https://twitter.com/diego_rbarros

 

4.Aleks Kalmykov ( Model )

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/382383824593151768/

 

3.William Seed ( Porn Star )

Sorry guys not posting links to him - if you want to see him look him yourself just be warned.

 

2.Keegan Allen ( King Cobra )

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/180144053822498376/

 

1.Richie Rocco 

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/571464640201967763/

 

 

Deeply Saddened

There are a number of things that upset me, when I see them in the news, but the one that hits me the hardest is when a child is abused or killed.  It is even worse when I hear about a parent(s) killing their kid(s).  It upsets me because, I know that I may never be able to have a kid in my life.  The only way it's going to happen is if I adopt.  This post is about a guy in Great Britian who along with his partner adopted the little girl ( 18 months of age ) and her sibling.  We have had to fight for the right to adopt and it hurts to see someone who had a child in their lives and take a life.  I understand being at wits end and feeling I could explode, but you just can't do that.  You have to pull yourself back and realize that a little kid her age or younger, tend to fuss when something is wrong or their hungry.   You don't take your bad day out on your kids.  I just want to hug this guys' partner and the surviving sibling as well.  I am doing to end this here and take care of the laundry that is waiting on me.

Scammed or Almost Scammed

It seems that dating apps and dating sites are the hangouts of people seeking our hard-earned money.  I am pretty sure they seek out someone who seems desperate.   Once they find someone, then they begin the process of buttering them up.  Once the guy is buttered up then they throw the line out there.   Yes, the line, it might be something like “I’m in such and such a country and had my passport stolen along with all my money” or “I need help with my business.”.  If it doesn’t work then they try to butter you up again or they try to lay on a bit of guilt.  I think that I’ve talked about this before and it sucks.  One thing it was done sadly is made so that I don’t trust people like I use too.  If a guy messages me and he says that he is from the U.S. but the way he types is off from the way an American would talk, then I start to tear apart his story.  It was brought back up today by someone that I’m pretty sure was in the process of hooking me.  If every word out your mouth is “Handsome” during the conversation, to me it just seems fake.  If someone that should be on the pages of a magazine, then yeah, I have reason to doubt your intentions, and I might just question you.  Has anyone else been taken a hit from a scammer like this?

Second Guessing

Second guessing can be dangerous.  If a surgeon second guesses themselves it could be fatal.  Luckily for the most part, when I second guess myself typically it only affects me or my writing.  However, sometimes just every once in a blue moon, second guessing myself can prove dangerous.  If I give someone the wrong identification on a plant or an animal could prove fatal or put someone in harm's way.  If I honestly don't know the animal or plant that someone sends a picture of to me, I make it my point to reach out and get that plant or animal identified.  Yes, sometimes, I have second guessed myself, and maybe, it could have caused bodily harm.  But I believe that I was right in one certain ID which I won't go into details but about the id.  Without going into detail, I had someone tell me that my ID was wrong, only to find out that I was right.  The animal in question is in fact something that can cause major health issues.  It's not an ID that I wanted to be wrong about, In the end, I reached out to someone because I didn't trust the other person's id.  It wasn't about me being right, it was trusting my gut.  Something that I'm not always good at, but I'm learning to trust myself.

Adding To The Voices; My Thoughts on Las Vegas

Imagine being at home minding your own business when a friend sends you a video of a shooting that has taken place in Las Vegas.  I was scared totally scared for the people who were there being shot at and for the family members as well as their friends who lost loved one's that day.  I'm saddened, that by a country who immediately turns everything into a political show with the democrats saying one thing and the republicans saying one thing.  I'm tired of the left saying one thing and the right another.  It is what it is, regradless of how it played out, people died.  We should be mourning their deaths and praying for those who are still in the hospital.  We shouldn't be displaying the killer's picture or mentioning his name.  His guns and ammo should be destroyed.  I think it's fitting that flags be at half mast.  There are so many stories from survivors that all you can do is cry and pray.  In the meantime, my hearts goes out to the heroes, the men and women who lost loved ones, and the those who are now in heaven with those who they loved that past away before them.

 

Tonight

I'm sitting here at my computer table with moist eyes. I'm not sure what I want to say. For a long time, I've hidden behind my characters as if they are shields. Lately I've been keeping people at bay so I don't get hurt. It's lonely but at least there isn't pain. My own anxiety is enough to send anyone packing. I'm sorry that I did that to that guy. Anyway, I'm going to go. I wanted to say more but I'm not sure what else to say. I feel like some great author, a hermit who along with his cats, only in this case, with his tarantulas, tries his best to come up with the perfect characters, the perfect plot, and killer chapters. Sure, it maybe emotional fluff that drives my chapters, but they mean something to me. Isn't that the way with every author, they put a bit of themselves into each story at some level anyway even if it's superheros, characters based on myths, or creatures of the night. Tonight though, I hope to don't want to dream of monsters or men. I want to just sleep and then rise in the morning only to earn my pennies and come home to the arms of my shield, the characters who are constantly shaped by whatever remains of my imagination. They are shaped by my emotions, by the people who cross my path, and my experiences for what they are worth. Tonight, I want to forget but I can't. I want to forget that pain exists. I want to be happy and I want to live even if my anxieties get the best of me at times. Tonight, I want to be in the arms of a friend, because tonight the pain is real. Anyway, I need to finish up this paragraph and get back to another.

Top Hot Guys For 2016

To be on this list, I have to find a guy handsome. They don't have be from popular in 2016 just someone that I felt like adding to my list. So here are my top hot guys for 2016. Oh one last thing, the guys cannot be on my list from last year or the year before. Being on this list does not mean that any of these people are gay or bi or anything else as I already said it just means that I find them handsome.

10.Diego Sans – ( Porn star & Model ) Don't worry he's dressed sort of in this picture

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/331225747570444966/

9.Thomas Beaudoin - Actor ( The Spirit of Christmas )

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/212654413633085995/

8.Andrew Taggart ( Leader Singer – ChainSmokers )

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/450219293982157911/

7.Ricky Roman – ( Porn Star ) ( Clean )

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/447474912947000989/

6.Steven A. Miller ( Actor ) ( The Spirit of Christmas )

http://m.imdb.com/name/nm2799338/mediaviewer/rm1563823104

5.Ray Isaac – ( Singer / DJ / Youtuber )

http://nostringsng.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/09/Ray-Podcast-Poster.png

4.Gerad Pique – ( Football / Soccer Player )

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/439523244863628065/

3.Sergio Aguero – ( Football / Soccer Player )

http://footballstars.info/sergioaguero-theultimatefootballstarprofile/sergio-aguero-body/

2.Joey Gentile ( Youtuber )

https://twitter.com/Joey_Gentile

1.Jacob Ford ( Andrew Christian Model )

You'll have to trust on this one guys.

Right Now

So this is me, feeling a little lost in thought. A few months back I met a guy and thought wow he was impressive. A few months prior to that I had met someone who seemed perfect and thought things were great. But this isn't about them, it's about me. I use to be able to speak with anyone. Now, not only do I not trust people like I use too, and I need to get over it. It might take someone to free me up from that issue. I use to talk to anyone and make friends with just about anyone who shared a connection. Somehow I feel like, I've lost that ability. A part of me feels as if the last guy pulled that from me. I need a chance to prove to the world, that I am me. I need to know that I can still talk to anyone and come away feeling okay about it.

Heteros Don’t Get Aids???

Believe it or not there are people out there who really believe that straight people don't get AIDS that it's a total myth. Yeah okay, tell me another another one Mr. Prager and Mr. Dobson. You need to get a clue. AIDS/HIV doesn't decide to just not affect straight people. It's equal opportunitist killing machine. Sorry to burst your freaking bubble but viruses can't tell the difference between heterosexuals, bisexuals, or homosexuals or any other part of the LGBT rainbow. Get a clue guys, get a clue.